growing up

daaaamn i havent posted here in hella long. and i have two posts haha oh well i dont think anyone reads anybodys stuff anyways. except tais cuz its funny haha. just kidding nigga.

but yeah this years hella fuckin weird. not in a bad way its just everythings different now. i guess you could say i changed but so did everything around me. so i like to say i just adapted to my enviroment. survival of the fittest ask darwin about that. everybody's been changing lately. i think people are starting to mature except for me and my friends haha. we just got more immature i think. but hey, we have fun and thats all that matters. people hate all the time and say we need to grow up but who the hell wants to grow up? were only gonna be teenagers once and our days are numbered. in like 3 years were never gonna be able to be teenagers again and were gonna have the rest of our lives to be grown up. i dont wanna look back on my teenage years and say oh i was too worried about being older so i didnt get to enjoy myself. when im 21 or in college i know im gonna miss these days. making stupid ass videos and doing stupid shit every second of the day. making animal noises and making people feel uncomfortable. were not gonna be able to do that stuff when were 21. were gonna actually have to be grown up or else we wont have a living. right now we can still do a lot of stuff and get away with it. we have our parents to support us so we might as well take advantage of that haha . theres no rush to grow up

dont get me wrong tho i still wanna be successful when i grow up and i will be. all of my friends will be. as much as people think were immature and stuff, we know how to enjoy ourselves and do what makes us happy. but at the same time we do what we have to do to get shit done. whether other people like it or not.

yeah theres hella shit going on in our group too but that happens in any family . you dont always get along with everyone. one week they are your best friend then the next week youve had enough of them and you cant wait to get away from them. i guess thats why everyone thinks other people are fake. every day i hear about how different people are fake. if you think about it everyones fake. everybody talks shit, including me. some people just do it more than others. and some people say things that are more insulting than others. but thats just whats funny these days. making other people feel like shit is funny now. thats what everything came to. its terrible but its true. i think its funny too im not gonna lie. its just when people get all offended is when its funny.

i kept thinking about how our crews so different than like 3 years ago. most of the people are the same plus some new faces but our lives are different. i think its cuz we have cars now. we dont sit in kevin or miggys room anymore and have good conversations anymore. its always trying to think of the craziest thing we can do that night. going on adventures or to parties and polluting our bodies haha . we dont ever go to waters end park with like 3934309 people and play basketball and walk to someones house and chill and watch movies the whole night anymore. its either we pick everyone up and go somewhere or everyone stays home and doesnt do anything. i was talking to gustavo about this too in math. we really dont know whats going on with each others lives that much anymore cuz we dont just sit and have conversations. all we talk about is what were doing that night and whats going on at the moment. i guess everyones just becoming more individual now. i think if theres a reason our group splits up is because everyone has different priorities. some of us are trying to grow up and the others are still the same. theres nothing wrong with either way its just everyones gonna have different ideas about whats fun now. despite all the changes i love my life so much. like really shit i wouldnt trade it for anything. all the people i surrounded myself with are great people and school and sports are perfect right now. well not so much school but its enough for me. so i cant complain im good (: